Quest for happiness
Ever since I was a child, I always said that all I wanted in life was to be happy.
I realise now that this is probably the biggest quest in life.
You may want to be an astronaut, a singer or a lawyer. For all these things you can study, go through the whole process of learning and graduating, go out there in the market and aspire to reach the top of the chain. It's very doable. Happiness though, you can't learn it, it's not as black and white as the lawyers constitution which separates right from wrong.
Happiness is not a destination but rather a state of mind. I know this and I can totally relate to it. The difficulty is answering to society's call on how we should live our lives. Money does not interest me apart from when we're talking about taking care of my parents in the event of them falling ill, the possibility of raising my kids in a different way (obviously in a more open minded structure and invested in their cultural learning and real life's understanding) and the liberty to continue to take my own decisions and do whatever I want next.
At this stage of my life, I am not ready to commit to a 9-5 job lifestyle. I am finding myself and that is the road I should take - regardless if my mum is totally against it. Ops...
I have many interests and, most times, it is hard to focus my mind on one thing. But I know what my 2 biggest passions are: martial arts and making a difference in this world.
Maybe because I came from a humble background for me, a world where we are not helping each other, does not make sense. I have had, many times, a desire to just drop everything and do something more meaningful. Help diminish world hunger, provide education, save our beaches, build sustainable farms. My mind fires up with all these ideas!! But I know I should probably take it easy and work on one thing at the time.
I sit down thinking what I would do if I had all the money in the world. I sit down trying to put together plans for the different ideas I have and they all come to the same ending: somewhere down the line, I'm either building something for the homeless or donating my time for any particular cause.
Now that I am here in Thailand I am putting together a very concrete project that, even thought it doesn't solve the worlds big problems, it can, and hopefully will, contribute to the lives of a few people.
In some of my darkest moments, I remember thinking "Dedicate your life to others, and your life won't be wasted".
I don't quite know where I am going with all of this but that is also part of life. It's my journey and so long as I start, new doors will open and show me the way.
Watch this space! xoxo